DAY 01

06 Dec '09
12:12 am
Frustrated

Today was NOT smooth at all, I'm restless and short-tempered all day long, sorry dear, I lost my temper on you a few times today, I didn't mean it, I'm really sorry.

Back at work, my in-charge is heading back to Malaysia, he told me he'll be leaving his pack for me, I told him I'm not gonna have it, he told me he's not expecting me to quit, just to smoke less, but still, I told him no, it was really a test for me, awful one, but I didn't think of smoking much during work, I'd things to keep myself busy.

After work, headed over to Plaza Sing for Jubeat, I just couldn't gather the strenght to play, I'm always one note behind, it really made me lost it, it was then I said to myself, how nice will it be for a puff now, but I really don't want to give up, I know I'm not gonna smoke again, but I'm really not sure I can make it =( Totally had no form today.

After gaming, went to the bus stop to wait for bus home, freakin bus took forever to come, made me more frustrated, I was angry, I was desperate, I was scratching myself, biting my lips, I popped 3 Fishermen Friends mint flavoured lozenges just to take my mind off it.

Today was totally screwed, I'm just glad it's over =(